If you know anyone who has had chemo before, you have probably heard how awful it is. I want to be upfront with my experience so I can help other people who might find themselves in a similar situation. Chemo takes everything away from you. Your appetite, your hair, your ability to think straight, even sometimes- your dignity. After two rounds of chemo I lost 20 pounds, and my will power. Constant nausea and vomiting was not kind to me. Losing my hair was even tougher. There came the day when I touched my hair and it fell out in chunks. I knew it was time to shave it, as it would be easier to manage. But, I didn’t realize how hard it would be. As my mom shaved my head, I could see all my beauty fade. My hair was something so important to me, it was literally who I was, part of my identity. Seeing all the hair on the floor brought me to tears. It was a harsh reality of what I should have come to expect, but it was not easy by any means. Then there was one day when my chemo bag spilled open. Since chemo drugs are toxic, the nurse had to come in gowned up, with people from chemical control to make sure the agent was contained. Meanwhile, I had to have the nurse help me in the shower to make sure I was clean enough. It was one of the most embarrassing moments of my life. While chemo can cure, it leaves you wounded in ways you can’t imagine. Although I’m grateful that I am still here, I would never wish this on my worst enemy.
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