Time is a funny concept. It is the only thing that we can never have enough of. There are weeks that pass by like months, days that last forever, and nights with loved ones that seem like they will never end. It isn’t until you are told that time may stop, or shorten, that you realize to be grateful for what you have.
It has been more than four months since I’ve received my stem cell transplant. I thought this process would be easier. I thought by now I would be dying to get back to work, and would feel back to normal. But it’s still a challenge. I recently gained a lot of weight in a short period of time, mainly due to medication, and it’s been really hard. My hair is finally starting to grow out but it’s very patchy. I’ve never felt more self conscious in my life. I remember when I used to look in the mirror and loved what I saw. Now I get sad thinking that it’s going to take a long time for me to get back to where I was. But I know this feeling will pass. I will get back to a normal weight, my hair will grow out, and I will find a way to love myself again. I have all the time I need. On average it can take a full year to recover from a stem cell transplant It can take 4 to 6 months before your hair starts to grow in I am giving myself this time of contemplation to decide my next move in life. I was so insistent on becoming a nurse and now I have a strict aversion from my time in the hospital, I will have to switch careers again. I am waiting for something that feels right to me, as I still see myself in a role helping people. I know now more than ever, I will find a way to get through this rough patch. Time is everything to me, and I’m glad I’ve got more of it.
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